Wednesday, August 14, 2013

Here's to Us

Sometimes you hear a song and it just makes you think. That doesn't happen often with the hard rock I tend to listen to, but this Halestorm song definitely got me.

This is for my girls. The girls who have showed me true friendship. The girls who I have fought with, made up with, and had the best times of my life with. The girls who have seen me through my darkest hours, and celebrated my greatest moments. I am a stronger, happier, and better person because of them. 

I can say with 100% honesty, I don't know how I would have made it through the last three years without them. We have been through heartbreak, job loss, moving (and moving again. and then again. and again), birthdays, weddings, babies, new relationships, road trips, countless girls nights, bonfires, and a few too many drinks. 

When I look back at this time of my life, these faces will shine the brightest. I have no doubt that these are the friendships people write about, and truly believe that we'll be friends until we are old & grey. These have been the hardest years of my life, but have also been the best because of my girlfriends. 

There are so many people who have influenced me and made memories with me, and I thank you from the bottom of my heart. My life wouldn't be the same without the ladies in the Girls Night Out meetup. You're all amazing. 

But when I heard this song, I thought of three girls in particular. From the bottom of my heart, thank you. A million times over. Love you ladies!

Monday, August 5, 2013

Permission to Fail

Last night, my mom asked me how I have managed to weather the storms life has thrown my way in the last 6 months. I told her that it's a combination of a few factors...

1) Counseling. Having a non-judgmental, unbiased, caring person there to listen has made a huge difference to me. My therapist allows me, and even encourages me, to feel every feeling. And then she helps me reason those feelings (because I'm too logical for my own good, sometimes) and learn how to use them to grow.

2) Diet. In the past, stress meant that I would lose my appetite. That's still the case. However, I have learned how to use food as fuel, and have learned how certain foods impact my mood. When I feel stressed, I know that I need to keep eating, but also know that I don't want to fall into a pit of poor eating habits. Instead, I have certain healthy foods that are reserved for those ultra-stressful times. This makes those foods feel like treats, because I really only eat them when I am in a difficult place. And having them planned in advance helps me make better choices with my diet during those times.

3) Here's the one I actually gave the most credit to - CrossFit. Whether you agree with the physical regimen or not doesn't matter. CrossFit has taught me how to fail, and how to gain confidence in every fail. I walk in to my box a couple times a week, and more often than not, I look at the WOD and wonder how I'm going to make it through. And then I do make it through. Every. Single. Time. It isn't always pretty, but I have finished every single WOD I have started since May. But there are still skills that I have not mastered. I have yet to do a strict pull up, or muscle up. I am still doing double/triple singles in place of double unders. I will probably be doing modified rope climbs for another year. But that's all ok. I have learned that I am stronger than I ever thought, and I have more confidence in myself, and my body, than I ever have before.

So when my mom asked how I have weathered the storms, I told her that I have learned that it is ok to fail, because it means I tried. That in itself is a success, and I take this lesson with me in every area of my life.

Friday, August 2, 2013

Friday's Letters

A favorite from my Door County trip, plus some great advice
Dear Life, Isn't it funny how we can know in our hearts that something is right, yet we still ache with pain? Maybe not funny, actually. Dear Friends, I'll be planning a going away party/happy hour sometime in the near-ish future. I'd love to see as many of you there as possible! Dear Colorado, I'm coming for you!! Looking like my hit the road day will be September 9! Dear Future, Please, please, please be easy on me. At least a little bit. I'm not asking for everything to go my way, but if I could just get a job really quickly when I get to Denver, that would save me a lot of stress and anxiety... Dear Self, Keep praying. Keep focusing on your dream. Keeping being better than yesterday. 

Linking up with the beautiful Ashley Slater! Head on over and check out her beautiful photography & see her adorable baby bump! :)


Thursday, August 1, 2013

My Favorite Place

Last week, I went camping in Door County for three days. With my recently broken up with ex-boyfriend. Weird, I know. But we had reserved the site 4 months ago, the weather was going to be beyond ideal for camping in July, and we wanted to end on a good note. So, we (as in, he) packed up the camper, our bikes, our kayaks, and two coolers full of food and off we went!

Door County is my absolute favorite place in Wisconsin. I love everything about it - from the hustle and bustle of the tourist towns, to the gorgeous views, and everything in between. Below are some highlights from the trip. Despite being the end of a really great chapter, we had a great time and I honestly think everyone should end relationships with a peaceful camping trip.