I have been doing a lot of reflecting lately on my two months in Denver- on my reasons for coming out here, my reasons for staying, and how both of those thoughts make me feel.
I am the first to admit that my first few years out of college were full of life lessons for me, many of which I learned the hard way. Luckily, I had some of the very best friends by my side as I learned, and made mistakes, and re-learned lessons. And even more lucky is that those ladies are still by my side.
But time changes people. And after learning and re-learning life lessons, you really have no choice but to change...unless you actually enjoy learning the same lessons over and over. I didn't. I was ready to change, and ready to be the girl I really wanted to be. But I knew I had a few lessons to learn still, and they were lessons I couldn't learn if I stayed in my comfort zone in Appleton. So I packed up my car and moved to Denver.
I talked a bit about why I left in this post. Now that I have been here for two months, I can say with confidence that I did the right thing. I left my comfort zone and feel like this is provided the perfect opportunity for me to learn even more about myself than I have in the last three years. And the best part is that these life lessons were not learned the hard way - they were learned my way.
If I had to pick the top five things I have learned since moving, I would say:
- I have it in me to move to a new city, alone, and make it. This has been amazing for my sense of independence.
- I can make friends if I put the effort in to get out of my house. Yes, I really did worry about this before I left. I know I can be a bit of a homebody, but I also knew that I needed girlfriends here or I would never survive. I am so happy to have found some really great girlfriends who have helped make Denver feel like home.
- My faith is a lot stronger than I realized. Especially in the first few weeks, my mom told me to "let go and let God" multiple times. And, guess what? I did it. Some things are out of my control, and I'm finally learning to be ok with that.
- I am comfortable in my skin, I know who I am as a person, and while I appreciate what others think...it doesn't change who I am.
- I feel like a damn rock star when I accomplish a goal I set for myself.
This adventure has brought every bit of confidence and excitement that I wanted it to. And it was just enough change for me to re-energize my soul and refocus my goals. That doesn't necessarily mean that I'm ready for it to be over. But there are also other goals I have for myself and for my life. So, for now, I am going to enjoy the adventure I am in. Come February, I plan to be in a season of discernment as I search for my next adventure.