Wednesday, November 20, 2013

A Season of Growth

I have been doing a lot of reflecting lately on my two months in Denver- on my reasons for coming out here, my reasons for staying, and how both of those thoughts make me feel. 

I am the first to admit that my first few years out of college were full of life lessons for me, many of which I learned the hard way. Luckily, I had some of the very best friends by my side as I learned, and made mistakes, and re-learned lessons. And even more lucky is that those ladies are still by my side. 

But time changes people. And after learning and re-learning life lessons, you really have no choice but to change...unless you actually enjoy learning the same lessons over and over. I didn't. I was ready to change, and ready to be the girl I really wanted to be. But I knew I had a few lessons to learn still, and they were lessons I couldn't learn if I stayed in my comfort zone in Appleton. So I packed up my car and moved to Denver.

I talked a bit about why I left in this post. Now that I have been here for two months, I can say with confidence that I did the right thing. I left my comfort zone and feel like this is provided the perfect opportunity for me to learn even more about myself than I have in the last three years. And the best part is that these life lessons were not learned the hard way - they were learned my way.

If I had to pick the top five things I have learned since moving, I would say:
  • I have it in me to move to a new city, alone, and make it. This has been amazing for my sense of independence. 
  • I can make friends if I put the effort in to get out of my house. Yes, I really did worry about this before I left. I know I can be a bit of a homebody, but I also knew that I needed girlfriends here or I would never survive. I am so happy to have found some really great girlfriends who have helped make Denver feel like home.
  • My faith is a lot stronger than I realized. Especially in the first few weeks, my mom told me to "let go and let God" multiple times. And, guess what? I did it. Some things are out of my control, and I'm finally learning to be ok with that. 
  • I am comfortable in my skin, I know who I am as a person, and while I appreciate what others doesn't change who I am. 
  • I feel like a damn rock star when I accomplish a goal I set for myself. 
Now, a few people have asked if I'm planning to stay out here, or if I have plans to move back to Wisconsin... Well, those are difficult questions for me to answer right now. My easiest answer is to say that I'm waiting to see what February brings. I'll be done with Masters and can start my job search. Yes, I will likely look at jobs in Wisconsin. Yes, I will be looking at jobs in Denver. And yes, my job search may even reach other cities and states.

This adventure has brought every bit of confidence and excitement that I wanted it to. And it was just enough change for me to re-energize my soul and refocus my goals. That doesn't necessarily mean that I'm ready for it to be over. But there are also other goals I have for myself and for my life. So, for now, I am going to enjoy the adventure I am in. Come February, I plan to be in a season of discernment as I search for my next adventure.