Wednesday, January 1, 2014

A Rewarding Year

This was my 2011 New Years post:



In 2011, I expected 2013 to be the year I was rewarded for everything that came my way in 2011/2012. Looking back at 2013, I think I can agree with my 2011 assumption. While this year was not without struggles, it was a fantastic year.

Here are the key thoughts/lessons I want to take with me into 2014:

- Be well. 2013 was the year that I finally learned to be completely comfortable in my skin. I am healthier, stronger, and more fit than I have ever been in my life.
- Love yourself. Going along with the previous reminder, I want to make sure I do not beat myself up over mistakes, or dwell on things I cannot change. I am becoming the best version of me, and in order to do that, I need to love myself.
- Stay focused on the present. You can't go back to the past, and we haven't found a way to travel to the future. The only time we can live in is the present. Dwelling on past or future events takes away from the life you're currently living, and I want to enjoy every moment I am given.
- Be true to yourself. I'm expecting to have to make big decisions in 2014, and I want to make sure I am making those decisions with my best interests in mind. There will always be people with opinions on how you should live your life, but you need to remember that it is your to live, not theirs.
- Slow down and stay still. While I am still very much a girl on the go, this last year has given me more opportunities to slow down, appreciate my surroundings, reflect on my thoughts and feelings, and be completely present in any given moment.
- Worry less, pray more. In my 2012 new years post, I reflected on the incredibly growth I had in my faith. I have continued to grow in my faith, and to include more people in my faith journey. I see my faith as a true blessing, but know that I can still improve. There are still times I find myself sick with worry, filling my mind with "what if" scenarios. I need to be more intentional about taking a step back during those times and giving my worry up to God.
- Never be afraid to dream a little bigger. Life isn't meant to be easy, it is meant to be rewarding. I have learned that if I set my sights on something, and I work hard enough for it, I can achieve what I want. There's not reason to have small dreams, and I won't let myself be limited by fear or doubt.

I spent my New Years Eve with my friend, Jaime, and her boyfriend, Steve. At midnight, Steve asked us what our three goals are for 2014. I am not one for resolutions, but goals I can get behind. My goals are to have a full-time job by July, to pay off my credit card, and to participate in at least three crossfit competitions. I love knowing that these goals are going to challenge me, but that if I stay focused, I can attain them.

I like that I laid out my expectations for the next two years in my 2011 post, but I don't want to continue that. While I have enjoyed using it to compare whether my predictions were accurate (they were) I want to stay focused on one year at a time now. These next few years are going to be full of amazing life changes, but I don't want to think about when they will happen, I just want to be happy in every passing moment and continue to take life as it comes. I finally feel like my story is unfolding naturally now that I have stopped trying to interfere, and it is my intention to continue living my life based on the feelings I have and the nudges I receive from God.

While it was not one of the goals I mentioned at midnight, another goal I have is to be more committed to this blog. I love looking back at posts, remembering how far I have come, and finding motivation in long-lost knowledge. School has consumed the majority of my free time for the last few months, but come February, I will be a graduate, and able to devote some of that free time to reflections on life and this amazing journey I am on.

With that, I want to thank you all for the roles you play in my life! I would not be the person I am today if not for the friends and family who have walked beside me this year. The love, support, and encouragement I have felt from you this year has been overwhelming, and I am forever thankful.

Sending you so much love,
Crystal